i have sevrail things i want to change cuzz i’m aiming for grate potensail but thair are some things about myself i must change inorder to reach my goal here are the things i wanna change;
#1 horror movies scare me, i’m not talking about fredy crooger or jason thoes guys don’t scare me the movies that do scar me are saw and the grudge and higrashi if you don’t know theas movies read what’s in quotation marks if you do then skip the next paragraph,
“the grudge is a curse made by 2 gosts who wer killed in thair own house and anyone who can find one of them is will have the 2 gosts chasing them all hours of the day and the victem always hears the sound of a cat or a groun when they die then the person killed lays down the same curse for others, saw is a man who capturs crimanals and traps them in a tortur house wair each room has a trap and when someone enters the room a tv turns on showing a toy clown on strings moving it’s mouth as the man saw talks throw a voice filtter and he gives the victems a clue on how to escape each trap then if a person figers out the clue they do what is needed to live if they can’t find out in a time limet the trap gos off and someone dies a slow and painful death if a person can get past 5 rooms that person is free to go usewelly escaping the traps involve having to tair your own eye out or cut your own leg off or use the machein to open up your guts and pull a key out of your own intestence, higrashi is a villge whair evry year a transfer student transfers to the town’s school and each year some toirists viset for site seeing thair’s a groop of 4 cute little girls that are just adorabul to look at but each year theas cute girls capture 3 peopul who arin’t nateves and torters them to death they do things like inject a drug into your blood that shuts down your eternal organs or tell give the victem some food to eat and a needel will be in the food or tell impail needels throw evry joint in the victem’s body pull the intestence out and throw the person in a suwge wast wail the victem is still alive and if you kill them they just come back at the end of the year and the remaining girls kill the victem but unlike the 1st 2 higrashi is animemated like a cartoon”
thoes are the movies that scar me i’m wanting to know how i can get the stranghth to say to myself “if they wer real i’d kick thair *** no probemle” i already know it’s not real and that alone is enofe to realeave me of any fears but i want the stranghth to say if they wer real they’d be no mach to me so this isin’t a fear problem it’s a power problem i wanna feel that i’m stronger then what hollywood shows thoes charectors to be
#2 i have sexual desiers but i don’t want any sexawal desiers at all i want nothing to do with sex but my body keeps getting a hard-on for girls but i don’t want to get a hard-on at all and also since i have sexual desiers that means it’s possibul for women to saduice me and i don’t want that i don’t want any sexual desiers at all so how to i get rid of my sex-drive
#3 i was born with only 1/4 of the natural mucal mass peopul have and i’m jellous that peopul can biuld mucals stronger then mine and pluse i have no sorce of proteen or just very little i don’t give a damn how big my mucals are i just want them to be strong the only thing that gives me physacail stranghtgh is the fact i have very strong edurence i can endure running to the point of going compleatly num and i can edure lifting weights to the point of the mucals splitting i can endure that much but my mucals arin’t strong i can’t lift anything above 60 pounds with a lever that’s 25 pounds with just my hands so how do i biuld strong mucals without hardly any sorce of protein i don’t want them to be big just strong
#4 this might be over your head but i have 2 minds inside me one mind is very childish, sassy, random and has an attension span of 1 minit and is always talking the 2ed mind id very dark, mature, only speaks when spoken to, very noble and knows just about evrything thair is to know about the humen mind and very obseritive noe theas 2 minds are fighting within me i want the dark and silent mind to win but it seams the childish mind is winning i don’t want that childish mind in me cuzz the childish mind always gets me in trobble all the time by throwing tentrams so i want the dark mind to win cuzz when my dark mind is in control of my body it makes me think of myself as nothing more then a tool to fufill the needs of others and that i am to get rid of all my ambisions inorder to help evryone around me, so the childish mind is all “give me give me” and takes from others and never gives to others and throws a tentram whenever someing dosin’t go my way but the dark mind is all about “putting the needs of others ahead of myself” and will both give and receive and when something dosin’t go my way when the dark mind is in control i just end up acting noble and think “thoes who suffer are the srongest of all peopul s